Sunday, March 31, 2013

Visualization II

 Paradise is hidden in each one of us, it is concealed within me too, right now, and if I wish, it will come for me in reality, tomorrow even, and for the rest of my life.”
  ~Dostoyevsky


Addition




Working on it.





 Will be good to go after some new water pipes and shower. Then a propane water heater, instant converter. It's warm and cozy. I cant wait to get the bulky cabinets out of there. -as well as pulling out the built in bed and shelves from the bottom right. This was going to be my bedroom, however, it would be more functional to have it be a living room/ dining room area. Since the roof is getting raised to make room for the bedroom loft I can have much more space to entertain and play. ĂȘtre au beau fixe!
I can't wait to cook a huge stew in "Big Beautiful"
Indra's stars

Frequent

Adventure Dog!

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Visualization

“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”
-Tolstoy

Today, I visualize. I take the time to organize my internal wants, desires, needs, knowledge, thoughts, words, and feelings. Through this meditation I obtain a greater sense of direction. Clearer creative and motherly sight. As there is much in life beyond our control, today,  I choose to focus on what I have the power to alter. How meaningful to me is this project and change in our lives? Tremendous. Therefore, I have dedicated myself to it's development. I lend my most favorite part of my brain and the best pieces of my heart to nurture this dream into our reality. Trust, there will be obstacles along the way. There will always be distractions and deceptions to tempt and lure you from peace. Hold your peace. Build your dream with one hand and shield your dreams with your peace in the other.


Raise the roof! Sketch for a loft bedroom, allowing for a dinning/living room area.


Sketch of addition
Drift wood for the floors!
I plan to use this type corrugated metal for the shower interior as well as much of the outside. It's cheap. It also reminds me of Hawaii.
I would like to find a spot that looks just like this. Wish list.


I may not be using these because of the weight it would add to the trailer. However, genius!


I like how this looks. I would like to see some color around those windows though.

Wish list rug. Afghan War rug.



This is how empty my bookshelf would look right now. Sad but true. Soon though..

My dress today while writing 
I had to share this.  Volvo Fireplace

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Liberation

“Community is a sign that love is possible in a materialistic world where people so often either ignore or fight each other. It is a sign that we don't need a lot of money to be happy--in fact, the opposite.”
Jean Vanier

 Recently, I moved from Denver. There, I lived in a few different places. At some point, occupied a small 3rd story apartment across the street from the Capitol Building. I had a wonderful view of the city and mountain peaks in the distance. A balcony extended from historic French doors. My other long term dwelling place was a Brownstone style 'condo' near City Park.  In both places I paid 650 in rent a month, plus utilities. I lived the city life, so to speak. It was a change of pace for my mostly rural existence in life. Although it was somewhat exciting, I would often become homesick over the less populated places I have had the pleasure of occupying.
 Hawaii is always heavy on my mind. The people and culture of the islands are rich with the pulp of community, unity. There, I feel embraced by the land and citizens. I feel ignited by the sounds and smells. Here, you can trade your papayas for avocados. You can share your lemons for some limes. Here, you will not go hungry. If you are willing to share when you have extra, you will always have what you need when you have not. The island taught me much about how life should be. I give thanks everyday for my experience and time there. It continues to guide and reinforce my current direction as a woman and a mother.
 Another place I embrace is Yellow Springs, Ohio. This tiny village has influenced and nurtured my artistic endeavors from the age of 15. It's here that I first gained my identity and power as an artist and creator. Here, I was uplifted by the support of elders and fellow artists, made aware of my voice. This place demonstrated to me that there is value in artistic expression, that I had value. This village taught me the power of independent thinking, visualization, expression. I go here to reconnect and reaffirm during transitional periods of my life.
 I am the mother of two daughters, ages 9 and 12. I balance working for myself as a painter/artist and mothering. My days are spent planning, researching, designing, painting, cooking, soothing, fire making, photographing, storytelling, grant writing, laughing, networking, finger-crossing, loving and praying. I earn a modest living, yet I get to spend much time with my family and friends. Making this room for community in my life is worth more than the money I could be earning by structuring my life around a 'regular job'. I don't want to sacrifice my happiness and time with my family for more money. I want to live well on the money I already make. Furthermore, for me, working for ones self is more challenging and satisfying than any other work.
 One downside of this lifestyle choice is that by not buying into the '9-5' lifestyle one is to be ostracized by the majority, possibly labeled as lazy or jobless. There is a stigma attached to working for one's self in this America. Although most people who choose to work independently are highly intelligent, tenacious, driven, dedicated individuals with a knowledge of self to understand what will and won't work for them in life. This isn't to say that the structure of a 9-5 isn't well suited to some and that those individuals aren't just as driven and intelligent.
 Through the places I have traveled and my experiences in each, I have had the great fortune of comprehending what kind of life I wish to live. Throughout the past few years I have been overwhelmed by the cost of living. Most of my income has been given to rent. I take on the occasional 'regular job' and still struggle financially. While paying someones mortgage, I have very little left to share with my family. I also have little creative control over my living space. A freedom to alter your surroundings as your creative expression dictates is important to me.
 I decided what would work best for us is to live within our financial means, have the creative freedom we need (and mobility), and live closer to nature. Thus, our 26 ft Shasta Camper Trailer!
 With much, much less rent to pay (basically just utilities and occasional repair, maintenance) we greet financial liberation. For us, this means extra curricular activities for the girls such as music and theater. More financial flexibility for emergencies. The ability to start a substantial savings for travel and enjoyment/enrichment in life. Yes, our space will be smaller than any apartment we have lived in thus far. However, we will be able to afford the types of finishes and amenities of a luxury condo. Our aim is to utilize all sustainable solutions available to us so that we can be as independent as possible from any unneeded financial burden.
 Granted, the Shasta is a little rough around the edges. It will take time and patience, and a small budget to get her feeling like a real home. Thankfully, I have chosen Yellow Springs as a foundation for this transformation. Here, my vision has been embraced and encouraged. Each day, I am proud to be a part of this artistic, liberal community. I am able to trade my skills for some of the work I need done on our new home. A dear friend of mine found us a place to park for a while as we make needed renovations. Others have loaned and donated hoses, extension chords, dishes, heaters, paint, and other supplies. We are still staying at a friends home while the camper is being worked on. We are very much looking forward to settling in and placing the marks of home upon it. It is with love and community that this type of lifestyle is possible. I would like to encourage other families in my position to live in a similar way. For us, it is most rewarding! Here's to the simplicity and boldness of life in a caravan!


The floorplan

Our special measuring cups!

Special Dog





Sunday, March 17, 2013

Homesteading

Twilight on sacred land. Much reflection.
The piece of wood for our kitchen bench. Had to save this one from the fire circle.



Masterminding

Romantic Dog

Found, Owl Mask
Beauty in a tow cable


Wu Tang
The warmest skirt I have ever owned. Thank you, skirt.

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Today Was A Good Day

When you rise in the morning, give thanks for the light, for your life, for your strength. Give thanks for your food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason to give thanks, the fault lies in yourself.
-Tecumseh

We Went To A Better Place

Today we moved to a better place. Instead of on the side of the street in a residential area (with a cord running from dear Maria's home) we are now situated on a piece of property near Tecumseh's birthplace. Electric and water. Hallelujah! Much of our renovation will now commence!
Phoenix, wings spread, keeping the balance !


The new view. Fire pit coming soon!

Something painted..

Pouring Love and Patience In

I found our address on a walk.
A Classic
A hint of what life will be like after renovation. Ugly blinds must go though.

I'm loving the sky light hatch!

Our bathroom :(  The biggest obstacle. Thankfully, I have a dear friend named *Dave Barker* to assist me with this monster. We are talking about plans now. I'm thinking a sleek urban feel. Dave knows how to make it happen. Blessings and praise!!


Not good. Must be replaced. Guess they switched a few years ago to a different valve system.

The Commitment

The big purchase! Body is in great shape for it's age. 1976 Shasta, 26ft. Ready for it's first tow as a part of our family!
Good Lord!
A little bit of paint right off to get things looking a little less ugly.
Paint to give new life to the ugly old sad 70's brown
It's not much but I'm proud of the changes I have been able to make on my highly modest budget